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And then there is this guy. No matter how I try to pivot, course correct, lick my wounds in private or internalize, he stands beside me. He holds me. He sits in the quiet. He serves me. He encourages and knows just when to cheer me on or motivate me, or shut the hell up and let me process.
He never pushes me. He never tries to make me something I’m not. He doesn’t try to change me. He doesn’t think I’m stupid or irrational. He never gets annoyed with me or expects me to snap out.
He asks how he can help me. Then does it. After I say it the first time. And when I don’t have the words, he rubs my back or feeds me.
We have gone through hell and back. And we are stronger today than ever.
As I continue to metamorphosis from these years and now into menopause I am not afraid of what’s ahead bc of who’s beside me.
So incredibly grateful and blessed by this man of mine. I love you no Facebook Dustin. 🤍✝️🤍
I was chatting with someone today. Had a huge epiphany. I’ve been in my own way. And I had no idea.
The last 6 years took tolls on me I didn’t even know were happening.
I have been open and honest about the things that happened, I just wasn’t honest about how I felt.
The passing of Raven, a secretary embezzling from us, Landon coming to live with us, Covid, some betrayal from people I would have never expected, my husband selling his business.
I am the type that I am an open book, and it seems like I’m talking but I’m really not. I’m telling you what happened but not how I feel about it.
I didn’t have time. Course correct. Course correct. Course correct. With a side of don’t let them see you squirm. Don’t let them see you weak. Don’t let them think they got to you.
I’ve suffered in silence. I protected people and myself. I didn’t have time to think about how I felt. I had to resolve and course correct. I tend to lick my wounds in private, even being so public.
Today I realized I quit trusting people. I quit putting myself out there. If you’re on OG I KNOW you have seen that change in me. I kept myself safe and small to protect my heart.
There have been some people who have checked on me. Who have shown up despite how hard I tried to hide. I forced myself to go to dinner with another couple last week. I used to go out 4-5 times a week.
And the truth is, none of this defines me, my life or other people. There are some amazing people out there who don’t want anything from me.
I realized I was surrounding myself with too many people who needed something from me, or who wanted to compete with me. I thought I was showing genuine love and care when all I was doing was enabling people. I love to root for the under dog. I love showing women they can and do deserve it.
But so many don’t want to. They want me to do it for them. Then God gave me some women who showed me what relationships look like with friends who don’t benefit from you. They don’t need me. They don’t use me. Or compete with me.
In fact, I’ve been the one in the trenches. And I didn’t even know it. I had nothing to offer. I was numb. Cold. Void. Avoidant.
Time to make a change.
How sweet it is to be loved by you.
I love our little family.
So incredibly much. 💙
New tree porch update! Got her moved to her new location. I’m going to add some presents or large ornaments at the bottom. Have to get lights on my garland. Coming along. I love how simple she looks out here. 🎄
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I snagged the my Texas house Cypress tree from @walmart
I was wanting a new tree for my outdoor patio and or upstairs. I have been wanting a natural looking tree to go with my natural greenery on my mantles. However, I did not want it to look farmhouse.
I added this red velvet bow from @dillards And voilà , that’s the look I was going for.
I bought the 7 1/2 foot for my outdoor patio, which makes my 12 foot indoor tree look massive. But I wanted you to see the different styles next to each other. If you’re looking for a simple tree to look natural or more farmhouse, I think this is a perfect fit. It was easy to assemble out of the box and only required fluffing of the top portion. It has steady lights or twinkle. In the middle rod looks brown like a trunk. Literally assembled in two minutes.
They do have the grand, which is fuller like my living living room tree, if you prefer that look. I’m going to anchor the bow and fluff it, and I’ll post pictures once I have it in its porch location so you can see the final look.
I’ve linked some matching garlands and wreaths for you also. Meet me in the comments and let’s discuss your thoughts on the tree. 🎄
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