I haven’t been my usual self. Not for a long while now.
I’ve been a roller coaster honestly.
Since 2020, where everything in my life changed.

I’ve experienced loss. I have experienced death. I have experienced divorce.
Maybe I wasn’t old enough to fully grasp or understand but I do now.

I didn’t lose my child, but I walked through the loss of a friends child. I was quite literally in the trenches. I fought public battles and private ones.
We experienced a financial blow where our secretary embezzled from us, lying to us, leaving us with quite a mess to clean up. But we did it.
I experienced the betrayal of my best friend. A loss I had to endure mostly in private as to not bring more public scrutiny to an already tragic situation.
I had my step daughter come live with us, then my step son. Changing life as we know it. Our Choice, but never the less.
Add on Covid, an economic downturn turn, grumpy people, and just heaviness in the world.

It’s hard to share links and stuff when life has humbled me like this.
It’s hard to talk about being a boss when you’re struggling to understand.

And I’m still struggling. Material things seem so trivial now. Goofy reels can make us laugh but honestly, all I feel is serious.

People’s lives have forever changed. People lost people, people are dying, people uprooted from their homes, their lives turned upside down. Children suffering, and so much unhappiness.

I’m trying to understand my new purpose. But it seems so much deeper. So much larger. So much more profound. I just haven’t got there yet.

In the mean time, where does that leave us? Sure, I’ll show you the new fan I got, (shark flex breeze which is amazing for real) but what I really want to show you is life after tragedy.
Life after betrayal.
Life after hurt.

I’ve lived an amazing life. So many things to be grateful for. So many poor choices leading me to a life of gratitude and happiness. I’ve been on top. I’ve been on bottom. I have earned my way to all of it.

Choosing gratitude amidst chaos. Choosing happiness amongst confusion. Choosing a forward path when so much is pulling you backwards.

Always having hope. 🤍

Hardest working man I have ever met.
I wanted a new UTV, he made it happen.
I wanted a new coop, he made it happen.
I wanted chicken tractor, he made it happen.
I wanted a new table to eat dinner outside on, he made it happen.
I send a recipe, he makes it happen.

No matter how big or small, he makes it happen.
No matter how important or silly, he makes it happen.

He answers every single time I call.
He holds me any time I want.
He does whatever It takes to make me happy.

He shows me I matter in every single thing he does, every single minute of every single day.

He is my husband. 🩷

Something I’ve been noticing lately…
People go to other people looking for advice. The problem is, they don’t give all the details.
People love to give advice, with out hearing all the details.
Especially when it involves 2 people.

If you’re seeking advice with out sharing both sides, it’s not actually advice you’re seeking, it’s validation.
If you’re giving advice with out hearing both sides, it’s not advice you’re giving but enabling.

Ask yourself, does this make sense? Is there more to the story? Bc the truth is, people who genuinely love and care for their friends or family give safe, honest, open, sometimes hard truth advice. Even when it’s uncomfortable. Bc real love and real friendship wants what’s best, not just what we want to hear.

💙✌🏼❤️